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domesticated-whores · 6 months ago

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I fucking hate the early stages of getting better where you only have maybe 1 or 2 solid, semi-healthy coping mechanisms that aren't the most reliable at all times and you're still shaky about it all. I'd rather just be better, but at least when I'm not okay at all I lose all hope in where I could be and I've already forgotten how it feels to be okay and stable. and I KNOW I need more, solid coping mechanisms. but I just went from absolutely no healthy ones and zero hope of getting better to having a few healthy-in-moderation ones and being able to verbalize some basic life goals, so this is progress. I'm not there yet, but this is what I've got and I'm getting there. And it fucking sucks because every time I get here it only becomes so much more obvious how far I have fucking slipped.

#and i hate the early stages of talking #because one of my healthier coping mechanisms is talking #and i hate everybody so its a lot of talking to him #and i cant really insert myself into his life like that yet because there isnt commitment or obligation #not that i would anyway often #but i feel like shit #and hes going out to do things with his brother #which good for him and i genuinely hope he has the best time #but i feel actually so bad that if we were properly TOGETHER together id ask if it were possible to reschedule #or if i could at least come over after and maybe spend the night #or ask for a check-in when he has time or SOMETHING #especially because i didnt get to see him yesterday and i probably wont tomorrow because he works later #but we arent there yet or anything #and i dont want to be clingy #i probably wouldnt make him reschedule or anything even if we were together like that #but i really wish we were staying over level right about now #because he probably wont even consider inviting me over if he gets home at 8-9 or even later #but i miss him because the anxiety spike im having is BAD and i havent seen him in a bit so now im wondering if he actually likes me at all #(pure anxiety talking and i have no reason to believe it but that doesnt make it fully go away)#and i would at least like a phone call or something #but i hate phonecalls because im quiet as hell so theyre awkward and im a sit in silence typa bitch #and he knows i hate phone calls #and hes talked at length about how he hates phone calls and prefers messages and all that #so i think hed take me seriously if i asked him to call #but i also dont want to worry him if hed take it seriously if i asked him to call #because he should enjoy his day off and do fun things and not feel any need to hang out with me all the time or anything #i dont want him to feel like he needs to schedule his life around me ESPECIALLY when we arent even together #vent #whores lovesick musings

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amygdalae · 10 months ago

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have never understood why squatting is considered a crime. loitering too. sir you have been arrested for the crime of....chilling. and hanging out. and taking a little nap

#also homeless encampments are never in the way of anything and yet the cops still harrass them. its fucked up #like we straight up push people out of existence. and for what #i know im not saying anything new here im just mad abt htis #like!!! if its space nobodys using for shit who cares! who cares omg. if we arent gonna house people we shld at least let them exist #like theyre already having a hard enough time man.#im sick of how ppl around where i live talk abt the homeless problem as though homeless people are the problem that needs to be solved #like no empathy no self awareness these 'normal' ppl want the unhoused dead or in prison and dont get how ghoulish they sound. anyways

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dykedvonte · 3 months ago

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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.

I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.

It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.

There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.

#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea #would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress #was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he #just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim #the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking #eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the #reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew #feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to #choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like #it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto #that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the #scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt #cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still #followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want #because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so #they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you #just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be #like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c #crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot #himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point #like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a #point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c #there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance #in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly #is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the #convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied #Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact #Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs #around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin #to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more

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krispiecake · 1 year ago

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tell me why i can hear another tenants fucking music from my flat. HE DOESNT EVEN LIVE IN MY BUILDING. HE LIVES IN A COMPLETELY SEPARATE BUILDING ON THE SECOND FLOOR AND I CAN HEAR HIS MUSIC FROM MY FLAT. MY FLAT WHICH IS IN A DIFFERENT SEPARATE BUILDING.

#and staff just say ‘oh we can’t do anything bc its not 11pm yet.’#ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.#i am autistic person who has just spent a full 12hrs in extremely overstimulating public spaces #i am exhausted and i have had to wake up at ass o’clock in the fucking morning #every day for the past like week and a half and will be expected to do so for the forseeable future #i am extremely sensitive to noise and have no ability to zone things out #like everything is always at the same volume for me #all the fucking time no matter what #and they say like oh well in the community there wouldnt be anything to be done so we cant do anything here #BUT WE ARENT IN THE COMMUNITY. ARE WE. WE ARE AT A SUPPORTED LIVING ACCOMMODATION WHERE I HAVE BEEN PLACED #BY MY LOCAL AUTHORITY WHO ARE PAYING TWENTY THREE GRAND A YEAR #AND I AM PAYING FIVE HUNDRED A MONTH #IN ORDER TO RECIEVE SUPPORT FOR MY DISABILITIES. A BIG ONE BEING MY FUCKING AUTISM.#YOU KNOW. THE ONE WHICH IS BEING DIRECTLY IMPACTED BY THE BEHAVIOUR OF ANOTHER TENANT.#WHEN I AM BEING PUSHED TO MY LIMIT ALREADY. LIKE IDK FEELS KINDA CRAZY THAT THIS ISNT SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SORTED.#i fucking hate men there is just literally no fucking respect or consideration like its genuinely disgusting and so fucking infuriating #and like he says that staff (women. btw) are being too naggy about it. but never fucking stops to consider that maybe.#maybe people wouldnt have to ‘nag’ you about it IF YOU JUST. DIDNT DO THE THING THAT IS ACTIVELY CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE STRESS.#IDK FUCKING WILD IDEA JUST THOUGHT OF IT.#literally die i want everyone involved to die like I CANNOT DO THISSSSSSSSSSSS

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egonkula · 5 months ago

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i only open tumblr to post gay fan art and giggle and kick my feet at monas blog

#“this song reminds me of you” why arent we married yet! !#mona i will literally do anything you tell me to btw #mona did you know i love you #also i thrifted 5/7 seasons of house md on dvd yesterday!!!#whenever i get my shelves in order... shelf tour will be posted #egonkula rambling #liddle stars

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ultimateloserboy · 15 days ago

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(animal abuse tw!!!)

hyperfix hell is something else but especially insane for characters like red and duck who are just suddenly really terrible out of nowhere. like its been a while since ive seen electricity (cuz its one of the episodes that gets me feeling too much) but i somehow gaslit myself into believing i made up the part of them drowning their cat. i thought i was filling in blanks with my memory but NO duck outright BRAGS about explicitly drowning their “boring” pet.

I knew they killed their cat 100% but i guess im so deep into my own head and been in the fandom for so long i thought i made a chunk of it up somehow 😭???

its still very crazy to me, its probably the cruelest thing i think theyve done proudly. and the worst part is that its NOT their bigger counterparts, its just THEM. base level THEM. THAT is who they are. maybe my brain tried to suppress that cuz its the only time in the series where i DEEPLY disagree about what theyve done. the rest of their cruelty upsets me, but this just disgusts me i guess. not only because of the animal but because they picked a slow and painful method. Every other instance of gore or general shittyness from those two i either laugh at or maybe get a little angry at them for a second like im their mom and move on. but this disturbs me. its genuinely evil to me and i hate the thought of it. the bigger boys torturing that blob thing is terrible, but theyre not the base-level guys, they act strange and disturbing intentionally. the guys on the lowest floor are just THEM. Them without any filters or add ons, thats literally just THE boys. I guess i still cant wrap my head around it even years later.

ten minutes later theyre confessing to each other… like… do they not remember anymore? was it that quick? or have they learned by now that their actions have no real consequences?

thats the thing that makes this the most uncomfortable to me, i think. theyre the way they are because anything can happen to them, and they can do anything to others, and they know they wont get any repercussions. Drowning a pet, crashing a car through your house, literally dying, getting your organs removed… none of it lasts. and they KNOW that now. but instead of being scared or freaking out like fanon always saw it, they see it as not only normal, but as an opportunity to do whatever they want. i dont think theyre aware of it enough to be articulately malicious with it, but thats whats terrifying. they NATURALLY have absolutely zero remorse and you cant expect them to. why would they? nothing really happened, did it? even when they remember doing it, whys it matter? clearly they can just change their mind, or wait it out. If death isnt for them, theyll just decide to come back. do actions mean anything in a world like that?

#i think we severely underappreciate and discuss the way the tv series main three no longer reacts to things like they used to.#the desensitization is genuinely a huge part of their characters now i feel #especially because it makes THEM complicit in the violence now!! which i think is an interesting take on the cycle!!#fanon doesnt do them justice in this regard. even from the start they have never been normal. theyve always been fucked up in the head #although they suffer at the hands of the world theyve never been shy of returning that favor on others #i like how the teachers arent really evil anymore #nobody thinks of it this way i but i feel ALL of the characters are equally fucked up and hurt each other for the same reasons #tv series duck is no better than the can that ate him in the webseries. theyre one in the same to me now #by the way— ALL does include lesley but thats a different discussion. ill defend her with my life she is NYOT the puppet master or whatever #tbh i honestly believe that the pain of the world is caused by the lack of limits and not an intention by some higher power to hurt #i believe that at least the tv series is more about the torture of being immortal and limitless against your own will or understanding #since roys been gone i dont think anything is out to hurt them i think its just impulsivity and lack of consiquence yet also lack of freedom #but idk if were ready for that convo tbh #dhmis #dhmis fandom #dont hug im scared #duck guy #red guy #fluffybird #dhmis tv show #dhmis tv series #tw animal death #tw animal abuse #cw death #cw gore #gore

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pinkseas · 14 days ago

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i miss writing so fucking much 😭😭😭

#'but aly you have been writing' and there has been no fulfillment no enjoyment. writing is something where i THOROUGHLY enjoy the process #i love it!!! i love writing so much!!!!! and i love that i love it!!!!!!!!! but right now it is just. borderline a chore. and anything #i try to write just frustrates me because i KNOW i can do better than this but the words just. arent working in my brain!!!#its been at least a couple weeks now and i still have sososoSO many ideas that are just. sitting there gathering dust #that i want to write and i want to love writing but i Don't. its something im like. making myself do because i know i should #instead of something im doing because i love it and i want to #and thats exactly what i NEVER want writing to become for me. ever. i refuse to push myself into burnout or disliking it #but that means Waiting and the waiting is driving me up a fucking wall i feel gross i feel like im losing my mind and usually writing would #HELP that and yet!!!!!!! here we are #no matter what i think of no matter what i try im not enjoying it. diff fandoms povs the literal HUNDREDS of scenes i have planned out and #waiting to be written!! none of it!!!! none of it has been doing anything remotely positive for me #i cant even use it to calm down when im overthinking because all its doing rn is making me overthink More!!!#delete later #this was Not supposed to be a vent 😭😭😭#im just so fucking sick of it its one of the biggest and only things that consistently makes me feel good and i miss it so much

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pyrotechnicdarts · 2 years ago

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love love LOVE when negative reviews of tlovm complain about how “woke” it is when we’re still only halfway through the second arc. babe we arent even at the cunt-serving nonbinary dragon yet

#its so funny. pal we are on easy mode right now. you havent seen anything yet #babe we arent even at mighty nein yet. babe we arent even at bells hells yet #cr #tlovm #critical role #j’mon sa ord #jmon sa ord #imjust really excited to see jmon sa ord animated #vm

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pilgrimposting · 4 months ago

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it is so fucking unfortunate and heartbreaking knowing that the only publicity your area is getting now and probably will for the next while is for the fact that the mountains flooded, when, famously, the mountains do not flood. especially when there are whole towns (2000 ft+ in elevation, mind you) that have been completely washed off the map or stranded. and we're supposed to relive this in a week's time.

#hurricane helene #appalachia #tennessee #north carolina #virginia #and here they were expecting us to 'just evacuate' when #no #we cant do that #contrary to popular belief we arent just a bunch of uneducated rednecks who care only about their guns. we're people with families #people who have lost their entire lives in literally less than 48 hours and have yet to be able to even BEGIN picking up the pieces.#THERE ARE STILL PEOPLE MISSING DAYS LATER.#and i think this happening has made me realize that. i HATE the fact that nobody will ever see us as anything different.#this doesnt happen in the mountains. it's NEVER happened #something something 'but muh climate change isnt real'#its right here but youre too blinded by hate to even look in our direction

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odysseys-blood · 7 months ago

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no actually it is kind of a wonder to me how pb is operating with whb like it is bc. arent yall also hosted (i believe anyways im not sure if their partnership w/ erolabs goes beyond that) by another company w/ SEVERAL gachas under its belt. so whats goin on here. nobody taking notes? are we doing market research? is anyone even play testing. hello. its so dark in here

#cliffnotes/.txt #whb #LIKE. atp im just here to see how long it lasts #not even a full year yet and honestly it srarted going downhill december....#i feared back in march they were gonna be trying to do passes monthly and its not a good look. thats like ~60 per month #thats a bill payment.#even subscription based mmos dont cost that much.#and lets be frank the game is not of any sort of quality that justifies $60 for a jpeg (and imo a lackluster side story)#like sry u can only use the company size as an excuse for so long and i will never dickride a company ever #but its. man.#i am interested in the game and its characters and story if we could GET TO ITTTTT #RAHHHH #atp im like is anyone trying to make sure this game lasts. it feels like its gotta be fully aware sabotage now #bc these choices arent making sense unless the point is truly just a quick buck #theres some useful little changes here and there but. man #it get overshadowed by the greed real quickly #i dont even care abt beel either just on principle. this is. a real head scratcher.#also this has been in my drafts since may if that means anything.#i just rewrote my tags 😭

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starscr0ss · 3 months ago

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i actually have a hard time understanding childe's character and is mostly because of other people's takes + im like so scared of mischaracterizing him

#like when ppl where saying he doesnt kill and people were calling that mischaracterisation #and then they turned around and called him a sociopath who doesnt care about others (sooo not true its painful)#its not that its a middle ground- both versions are just. not him #i think childe kills not because he's some homicidal maniac but because its his duty to the tsaritsa #and while he does not do it on text from my pov is like heavily implied? yk? her majestys weapon?? feared in battle?#but the word duty is important #i think childe wants to be good- more than anything #he wants to be a good brother and a good son and a good comrade #and being a harbinger is what has allowed him to do so #being her majesty's weapon is both a prision and liberty for him #he can take care of his family. he can find strong opponents. he can gain strength.#he cant make meaningful connections with others. he cant always do the work he wants to do. he cant (always) be the good guy #last part is the most important to me. its clear during liyue he didn't enjoy putting innocents at risk #but he does so anyway- out of duty #and here is My Interpretation: childe knows his position and knows it will force him to hurt others #which he doesnt enjoy #and to cope with that he seems to have convinced himself that if he only hurts those who are bad then it means he himself is not bad #for childe that is enough. except we know it isnt #the fatui is a deeply unethical organization- even if their goals are pure their means arent and we know that #childe thinks that separating himself from his coworkers and just trying to hurt those who he (or the fatui) deems as bad is enough #but it isnt enough ! because he still is contributing to said organization- he is by extenction enabling their unethical actions #he isnt good #and thats what i love about him #him not killing wouldnt make sense because then what is his internal struggle? why is then that the older members of his family hold +#so much contempt for him #if he were just a silly malewife who just likes to battle - why would his father have sent him to the fatui in the first place #along the same vein him enjoying killing and finding no issue with it wouldnt make sense either #because again then where is the conflict- by several voicelines is clear childe doesnt care much about himself / has a low self esteem #childe knows whats right and whats wrong and he knows that what he is and what he does isnt right #yet he still does it. out of naivety or (and i like this answer more) duty

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thegreatimpersonator · 6 months ago

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I am so glad that action was taken before anyone got hurt and my heart breaks for those impacted. Though, I am once again asking people (on multiple different "sides") to stop immediately running with this for stan purposes, victim complexes, or justifying narratives they've created. Can we empathetically and with nuance discuss things within their wider socio-political context for once.

yes sadly i've already seen this happening as well, it's like the time between tragedies turning to stan wars is shorter and shorter every time.

#answered #anonymous #i've obviously seen people somehow blaming taylor which is awful and obviously wrong #i've also seen the 'this is why we shouldnt make fun of taylor swift fans' and what does that have anything to do with this #they're targeting taylor swift events bc those events bring the largest crowds- not because they personally dont like taylor swift fans?#the whole point of attacks is to create mass panic and fear so they target the places most talked about with the most people....#and yet here everyone is trying to pass blame on people who arent the issue #we should just shut up truly #and be grateful no one got hurt

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poppyseed799 · 1 year ago

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btw I don’t know if this is a thing anyone is thinking about but I’m not gonna stop drawing Jimmy as a canary. It’s a lovely bird. It’s still something that’s been really important to his series. There’s no reason to drop the canary headcanon just cuz Lizzie fell into the void.

#warning: don’t open up these tags I went on a very heated and rather unrelated rant cuz I’ve been mad #trafficblr #life series #secret life spoilers #secret life smp #jimmy solidarity #also I’m sick of seeing ppl celebrate Jimmy surviving because they hate the canary curse fans like SHUT UP!!! LET US HAVE FUN GOD!!!#LIKE LITERALLY EVEN IF NOBODY CAME UP WITH THE CANARY METAPHOR WE WOULD STILL BE TALKING ABOUT HOW HES ALWAYS DYING OK WE DIDNT MAKE UP THAT #HE DIES FIRST HE JUST DOES. GOD. so what if some people make shakespeare sounding posts about the curse that I don’t understand. we are JUST #having fun and making connections where we don’t need to BECAUSE ITS FUN. NOT CUZ WE DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. sorry for the past few #days I’ve been genuinely mad at this fandom’s growing hatred towards its own community.#LIKE IM FINE IF ITS NOT YOUR THING BUT GOD. WE ARENT EVEN DOING ANYTHING 😭😭😭 THE LORE LITERALLY WRITES ITSELF OR IS WRITTEN BY MARTYN LOL #I’ve just been getting SO TILTED man. like ohhh yeah okay ur right i said too much guess I won’t say anything anymore #does anyone else genuinely not know wtf ppl are talking about when they say a certain hc takes over everything about the character #cuz I literally see so much varied Jimmy content yet I’ve seen several ppl complain that ppl ignore aspects of his character in favor of #WHATEVER when I literally don’t see that happening to him. step out of ur circle or something I don’t even HAVE a circle man

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sucktacular · 7 months ago

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I miss the days where existing online was a fun thing for ppl with social anxiety to make friends on instead of like Life 2.0 ya know

#sucktacular sucks #this is literally about nothing im just like #so tired. im tired all the time. being online was my lil fun escape place #but now itslike #DID YOU KNOW HORRIBLE THING HAPPENED AND IF YOU ARENT PAYING ATTENTION #YOURE AWFUL AND ALSO THIS OTHER STUFF DONT DO IT BUT YOU #HAVE TO DO THIS THING OR ILL SEND YOU DEATH THREATS #or YOU DID XYZ OR LIKE XYZ THAY MEANS YOURE EVIL AND AWFUL #and its like #i know this stuff existed still back then but also #i just miss making movie maker slide shows #and having funny fake cyber sex in gaia online towns with my friends that i dont #know anything about and will never meet #like i could probably still exist in that closed off little world if i tried harder #but like maaaaann its just rough #i log in and get bombarded with information #i have no money i dont go outside and i want to be left alone except for my friends #i dont want to be anyone and i dont want to do anything #and Yet #my anxiety is on high alert every hour of everyday #anyone else wanna just exist and enjoy stuff or be a hater but it not be A Big Thing #again literally about nothing just like #i have an anxiety disorder and i know existing is already hard #but man online gonna make it hard now too huh #ewie #anyway i do miss my death note mutuals but i cant even socialize with my besties these days #cuz im too anxious and one little trip up and im gonna explode and die frankly #working on it #HOW THE HELL DID WE WIND UP LIKE THIS #AND WHY WERENT WE ABLE... TO SEE THE SIGNS THAT WE MISSED. AND TRY AND TURN THE TABLES

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alxor-of-hellsite · 1 month ago

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THINGS!

2025 is going to be the most jam packed stressful year of my life & i know that for sure because a lot is already planned. So i WILL be an absolute mental wreck (this is apologies in advance) & i will literally be clinging onto support most likely the whole year so tumblr will either be me spamming constantly or me not here for weeks or months at a time & barely posting? i’m so unpredictable. Anyways my entire life is guaranteed to change & the best case scenario will still ruin a lot of shit for me so if i get really depressed THERE IS REASON!!!! & i’ve already made several promises so the world is stuck with me if i can help it. so uuhhhhhhhhh YEAH. ANYWAYS IM SCARED FUCKING SHITLESS LIKE ZERO SHIT SCARED OUT KF MY FUCKING MIND SO YEAH. THE MENTAL STATE WONT BE THE BEST. LOVE YOU GUYS!!! IF MY ACTIVITY IS SPOTTY IM NOT DEAD WE’RE PROBABLY JUST DISSOCIATED AS SHIT!

Anyways. TLDR i’m going to be super fucking stressed out & out of pocket for the next year because of shit.

Any friends of ours read tags pretty please <3

#new year 2025 #going to be super hyperactive or stare at a wall for a week & i don’t know which one it will be yet it’s leaning towards stare at a wall #for maybe like a month. just stare at wall & cry #BUDDY REN IS NOT OKAY! BUT HANGING IN THERE!#WE COMMITTED TO HARD TO THE BIT THAT IS LIFE SO YALL ARE STUCK WITH ME LESS SUN DONT SHINE RIVERS TAKE ME DOWN!#mighhhhhht end up relapsing on the addiction but that is way better than being dead. it doesn’t have to be healthy at this point #as long as it keeps me alive & sane i guess? i’ll obviously try not to but like dark times are dark #life update #IF YOU ARE AN IRL THAT I TALK TO OFTEN & YOU NOTICE ME NOT RESPONDING TO ANYTHING OR REACHING OUT PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD REACH OUT #IM SAYING THIS NOW BECAUSE IVE BEEN INCREDIBLY SUICIDAL BEFORE & AM BEING CAUTIOUS AS HELL!!!! MENTAL STATE IS NOT A FUCKING GAME OVER HERE #LIKE IF I START SHOWING SIGNS & I AM NOT TAKING CARE OF IT ALREADY REN IS A STUBBORN BITCH & WILL REFUSE HELP BUT IM NOT PLAYING #IF SHIT STARTS GETTING CONCERNING FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE INTERVENE #LIKE OBVIOUSLY IF YOU ARENT DOING GOOD EITHER & NEED PRIORITIZE YOURSELF DO THAT!!!#BUT IF YOU ARE IN A POSITION TO HELP & CATCH ON TO ANY CONCERNING SIGNS PLEASSSSSSE DONT LET THIS BITCH TURN HELP DOWN & INTERVENE #WE WILL PROBABLY NEED ALL THE HELP WE CAN GET & ALL THE SUPPORT WE CAN ASWELL #BUT ALSO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF PLEASEEEE? DONT IGNORE YOUR OWN NEEDS #APOLOGIES IF THIS IS WORDED BAD IM NOT THE BEST WRITER THATS NOT MY JOB #SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU GUYS & IM GOING TO TRY MY HARDEST TO SUPPORT MYSELF BUT WE MIGHT NEED MORE HELP THAN WE CAN GIVE OURSELVES ALONE?#IF ANY OF THIS SHIT MAKES SENSE #MIGHT NOT? I DUNNO DM ME IF YOU WANT TO BATTLE PLAN WITH ME #THE BATTLE BEING LIFE WHILE CHANGING LITERALLY EVERYTHING & MAYBE BEING AN INTERNALLY DISPLACED REFUGEE IN THE COMING MONTHS #I LOVE YALL! UH THANKS FOR READING I GUESS? IM TIRED & GONNA SLEEP NOW #GOOD NIGHT YALL <3

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glubandeepspace · 2 months ago

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nothing fuels creative endeavors like seeing a take that is very juicy very delicious if not for lack of awareness it is an overwhelmingly common dramatic misconception fueled by hearsay and assumptions about things underdescribed and/or ambiguous so far

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